Time & God and their inside jokes...

I think Time and God share inside jokes that go past me. ...beyond me.. Often leaving me confused with a faded smile on my face. Elapsing in thunderous roars. ...respectively ...as if they were speaking in tongues.

 I'm alive and well. For the past little bit I've been taking in life. ...Taking in the confusion. Taking in this transitioning period and accepting it (still learning to embrace it wholly). I am thankful. 2011 was GREAT to me, and I was so GOOD to 2011 (lol). I worked hard, I cried hard, I failed hard. and most importantly felt myself growing.. and every blessing tingle every fiber of my being throughout it all.

I have several goals.. some of which I slowly started to actualize, others I've been slacking on already.. and we're only 12 days into the year folks (shame). I blame the fact that I haven't written them down yet. I've been just talking about them. lol. But I will say this...  *ahem ahem*

I hereby commit myself to a minimum of 1 blog post per week. Which will involve my writing in more detail than a brief 2 line commentary on a visual that accompanies the post aforementioned. ... From today forward. 


- signed: Yas
(first time I use the word "aforementioned" I hope I used it properly lol)
If ever you see me slippin' tweet (...) at me (@YazzyTaughtMe) on twitter so I can get on it. ('tisnowwritten)

Flying Lotus - Fall in love by -djay-

`sweet dreams`

We must not forget about our mothers

We must not forget that our mothers were once young women

That they had lovers before our father

That they too once longed to belong

longed to feel at peace when alone 

at home ..(s).

and with other(s)

...

We must not forget

That they too were lost like we are now...

(...at some point)

This thought came to me yesterday after spending my Sunday evening with my friend's family. In the company of good conversation marinated in Trinidadian and St-Lucian accents. ...Yesterday I felt homesick. Reminded me that I might possibly spend my first Christmas without the fam this year.

We cannot forget that our parents were and maybe still live a life of uncertainty. ... In this quest of finding answers and clarity to my path..(lol) ... I also spent my yesterday taking a personality test. This test showed that I was a "INFJ type" ... (there's this link too) ... then I proceeded to google which careers would fit me. Only to find out that with my "personality type" I cannot be boxed into a certain career path...  ...(still trying to figure out what this means).

(currently vibing out to Eric Lau's instrumentals while I'm looking for jobs... I've noticed his name on a couple of blogs, but have yet to really listen to anything yet until tonight.. so far :) .. so good)

The Pursuit of (Cool): Coltrane Curtis

The Pursuit Of (Cool): COLTRANE CURTIS from R+I creative on Vimeo.

Being Grounded

Life is interesting... 

I'm moving/looking for a job/looking for specific purpose/looking for myself/ looking for a right path/ looking to be less hard on myself/ looking to not be on my laptop and copped up inside/ looking to exercise more/ looking to pray more/ looking to cook more/ looking for more money. lol.. / looking to laugh more..

....

".. Ultimately I intend to be more present and aware through them (spiritual practices), ... to be more compassionate and see the world through a more compassionate lense as opposed to my own pride, my own fear " - SK

...

"...Being oriented in such a disorienting and distracted world.." - SK

Today hearing his story makes me feel sane. 

thankful

Manmie...

Hi mom,

I want to tell you that that I really meant to call you yesterday… and the day before that. But I got caught up and I’m sorry. I know that you will not always be around… but please know that I care. It is a joy to be called your daughter … it is an honour to have been birthed through you. It is an honour to have been nurtured by your ways and fed by your hands and taught your ways.

Please know that I am grateful. (1:02 am – 18/11/11)

 Downtime - Robert Glasper Trio (Drum Cover) by ZionGuy 

Sometimes I get busy. Sometimes I get too busy to call you and check up and see how you’re doing … not only as a mother of 5 beautiful children… but also as wife … as a person as human being. Sometimes I get too busy making sure the outcome of my hustle make your heart smile … and I forget that it is in the subtleties and small acts that fuel fire to your fight to be here.

Immigrant petite Haitian woman.. Strong, random quiet /loud when needed but warm when my spirit needs it the most. You left your home to be here in the cold for a better future for your children. Know that I remember your ways, habits annoying or not. lol.. know that I miss them all. know that I memorize the creases and folds of your face when your frowned in dismay or disaproval of some of my actions, words or attitudes. ...know and trust that God is shapping me into ways I'm sure will please your heart.

(1:24 AM – 18/11/11)

I'm not sure where you find the strength to be as great as you are. I gage that it is super-human... maybe something borrowed along the lines of your own mother and father and those before them. I gage that this strength ... and has been passed on to you like it has now passed on to me.

I'm learning to be strong like you mom... (I'm trying)...

Mom I want to tell you that yesterday I cried tears of joy at the feeling of peace I felt you had when I left you that random voicemail, asking you how you were doing. I hope you believe when I say, I'll try to do better... I will be better, and call you more. I know that it is in your nature to worry, rightfully so, but please don't let these thoughts take too much space in your mind... you deserve more than what I sometimes give you. You deserve more than this.

I smell a promise being made in exercising who I am (and I'm still figuring out what that is)...

(3:04 AM - 18/11/11)

Erykah Badu Lecture (RedBull)

Lecture: Erykah Badu (Madrid 2011) from Red Bull Music Academy on Vimeo.