Thursday, February 24, 2011

Veuillez Veiller sur vos Rêves

Soulection // Teaser by SOULECTION

I haven't written anything solid in a while. I've scribbled here and there, but nothing solid. Part of it is because I'm uninspired, and part of it is because I'm trying to make sense of these words that fell from my brain to my laptop screen. I have a document of 5 pages worth of words, and ideas that I'm trying to convolute into a poem or 2 or 3 and I'm stuck.

So here's the idea: I'm going to attempt to do sort of like a writer's bloc. lol... except that I will be alternating between words and sketches... not sure when this will start but right now March 1st looks very probable. I don't think I will share any of it on this blog though, unless the outcome of my penmanship far surpasses what I thought I could produce... umm.. yeah.. that's the idea, so we'll see.

(I used to log on myspace (chhyyeeaah remember myspace??lol) just to play this song over and over again, cuz I'm cool like that)

Dear Eye problems, please go away.... Dear Essay, please write yourself.... Dear inspiration, where are you??? :(

(Strange Fruit)

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Here's a video from the ever so CrippyClean people of Street Etiquette ... I've been toying with the idea of taking blogging more seriously and collaborating with a few people and create a blog or a tumblr that takes awesome to another other level. #saulwilliamshit. ..but I dunno.


On other news... since my right eye is in some sort of comma from fighting this virus, and today my left eye felt left out, it wanted some too... smh. I decided to study music... lol. And ran into this song: "You and I (we can conquer the world". Which has an interesting story behind it. But before I can get to this song I guess I should first address the idea of creative freedom in music. Well at least at the time Stevie Wonder was transitioning from little Stevie Wonder to STEVIE WONDER. There was little to no room for creative freedom for artists especially in the machine called: Motown Records (which in itself deserves a post and book as topic of its own but I digress). If it wasn't for the HUGE success and revenue that the Jackson 5 was generating for Motown, and Mastermind: Berry Gordy (founder) he would NOT have gotten away with releasing 2 flop albums as BIG STEVIE WONDER.

All this to say that the song: "you and I (We can conquer the world)" was a song that stevie wrote for his then wife Syreeta Wright. He never released this song as a single, but people always asked him to perform this song, but turns out Stevie isn't a big fan of performing this song. Guess why?? ... ... give up? ... turns out Syreeta left him after this album was released..... granted their relationship only lasted 18 months, and her other marriage was also short lived...but still.

it made for a great song at least...smh

can you imaging, spilling your guts out believing in the very crevices of your heart that you and this person can conquer the world, and all of sudden the person dips... and leaves you dry. ... it makes it especially disheartening cuz the song is sooo honest, and simple. ... and then for the song to be a HIT record. According to my music prof, this song was one of Stevie Wonder's songs that he wrote just for his wife and decided to put it on the album not for his fans but for his wife, because he had creative freedom (kinda reminds me of how he was rolling like Ray Charles in the sense that both were blind, were BUSINESSMEN, TOTAL creative freedom, black & HIGHLY successful... well sort of maybe Stevie had less groupies).

On another note, here's a video I found by Travis Barker feat. The Clipse (track is produced by Pharrell) ... uuuugghhh. I love it :)

Travis Barker Ft. The Clipse - Come and Get It from DanTheMan on Vimeo.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Cee-Lo - "Bodies"

I'll admit that this song is not one of my favourites off His album, but This video is amazing!!!!!! UUGGGHHHH... :)

(I spot with my little eye: Bilal, Karl Lagerfeld, Janelle Monae, Common, Kerri Washington, and raphael saadiq, and an Alexander McQueen shoe, and amazing visuals! :D .... can you?]

Atlantic Records present: Game Changers

So I speak a lot about change, a lot about movement and music, and I just ran into this interview series done by Atlantic Record with: Janelle Monae, B.O.B., Estelle, Lupe Fiasco. I love everything there's saying in these clips. I love everything they're saying, everything they're about. ... uughhh.. LOVE. and more love.

(Strange Fruit)

Monday, February 14, 2011

Blank page and Flashing Cursor

I’ve been going through a drought of ideas. Blank white page and a flashing cursor have asked me what my purpose for writing was, and I couldn’t find words appropriate enough to convey what I wanted my Valentine's day post to be. So I just went with it...

You see... I am a work in progress ... And sometimes feel insecure at being “incomplete”.

What do people mean when they say: "you complete me"? Does that mean that their personal growth has stopped? ... Does it mean that they accepted that they could never be happy with themselves? ... *shrug* I don’t believe in the idea that someone can complete another. Though I believe in love, I also feel that it is important to first love yourself for who you are and feel complete within yourself first. I think this feeling of being complete is perfection which is impossible to achieve, so I’ve embraced being this work in progress (which in itself is a work in progress lol). As a few posts on my blog have suggested, my goal this year is to fully embrace everything about this growth. ... and to love whole-heartedly.

I’m ok with the fact that my growth capacity is loading at the speed that it is... lol. (sometimes I feel like I'm the only PC left in a sea of Macintoshes.... (did you get the wordplay?? I'm still loading... work in progress? computer? pc/mac? lol #highfive!!!) ...but I digress)

APRICOT — A Short Film by Ben Briand from Moonwalk Films on Vimeo.

Like I said... DROUGHT of ideas.... specifically ideas worth writing about or sharing. I think this feeling is also matted with the uncertainty that holds in the next 3 months after I receive my expensive university receipt. So at 4pm I stared at the blank page of my laptop in an attempt to write about what's going on and here's what I got:

A flashing cursor amidst nothing but the vastness of a blank page can find ways to ask you questions you dare not ask yourself, if you let it.

So in my solitude I admitted the accusing cursor 5 truths.
The first is that the first man I ever loved is my dad
The second is that I find men in well fitted suits sexy (weakness = the tie! Lol)
The third is that I am slightly concerned about the unconscious vibes I send to people
The fourth is that I have yet to find a viable reason for me to get my license. I'm ok with that. lol
The fifth is that I really do believe that my love is God, because God is love. (“there is a light that shines special for you and meee”) ... common sense

"Let Love and Faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart... then you will win favour and a good name in the sight of God and man" - Proverbs 3:2-4

Strange Fruit

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Marilyn Monroe was a big supporter of the Civil Rights Movement. Marilyn was a big Ella Fitzgerald fan, however, the Mocambo nightclub, the most popular nightclub of that time, refused to let Ella perform there because she was black. Marilyn told the owners that if they would let Ella perform, she would be there in the front row every time she was onstage. The club booked her and Marilyn didn’t miss one performance.

According to the great Ella Fitzgerald:
“I owe Marilyn Monroe a real debt…it was because of her that I played the Mocambo, a very popular nightclub in the ’50s. She personally called the owner of the club, and told him she wanted me booked immediately, and if he would do it, she would take a front table every night. She told him - and it was true, due to Marilyn’s superstar status - that the press would go wild. The owner said yes, and Marilyn was there, front table, every night. The press went overboard. After that, I never had to play a small jazz club again. She was an unusual woman - a little ahead of her times. And she didn’t know it.” - (reposted from

... hmmm... the more you know

I was thinking, Hypothetically ...I mean..

Let's say I was one of those ladies who liked to talk and vent about all those "haters" I got, and profanity spilling out of my tongue every two seconds, the drama that followed my ever so exciting life would probe me to say something along the lines of: "F-U haters" ... I would follow it with a picture like this:


LOOOOOL!!!!! I literally laughed out loud while pointing at my laptop screen, when i saw this pic. I DARE you not to laugh.. don't judge me... I know I know, the poor kid looks devastated, and his feet are positioned in a way that suggests that his next step will land him face to the floor,...hahaah... (God bless his heart).

But this picture deserves a frame and an award. It is priceless.

Ohh yeah...
Twitter: @YazzyTaughtMe

(Strange Fruit)

k so I haven't posted anything in a little bit lol... mostly because I've been super unimpressed with the internet, and uninspired to find words worthy of being shared and imprinted into this cyber-space. ... That, and the fact that I had a million and 1 other things on my schedule!

Raphael Saadiq "GOOD MAN" from Isaiah Seret on Vimeo.

Speakinng of good man... sooo... valentine's day lol..... I see you...

.... *shrug*

On other news, I just joined twitter yesterday ... it seems like a lot of work. It makes me feel like I don't know how to use the internet lol... I feel like it's going to be another waste of time...

Thursday, February 10, 2011

One Day It'll all Make sense

For 22 years.. I have been granted breath. One of the simplest and most beautiful gifts that I could've ever been given... and just when I thought things couldn't get any better, I am overwhelmed with love and messages wishing me ... Happy Birthday.

Today (feb 1st, 2011) I welcome myself and my 22 year old self into this world. Today my new year starts. Good morning. Good morning silence, good morning to myself. Good morning to the answers I will find.. good morning to the questions, good morning independence or is it loneliness. I pray for God's will to be done.. the very second I was no longer 21 lol. (I too smell india arie all up in this post lol)... but really though. I am greatful and welcome whatever this is, whatever it will be, into my being.
Sometimes I really truly wonder why someone like me can have so many blessings.. it's almost not fair. lol. I guess maybe that's where my purpose or whatever it is I am meant to be on this earth comes in... to give it all back to my community. I am far from righteous, not left but center... grounded in truth I guess... I am praying for understanding and not to be understood.

Humbled. Around this time at 3:15 pm on february 1st 1989, I inhaled and exhaled for the first time. ... 22 years later. I blessed to have been able to take a million breaths over and over. 21 was good to me.

"Her charm is in her silence, she speaks in extended parenthesis" - saul williams

( ( (a million thank you's) ) )

Strange Fruit