I don't know how to explain my tendency to isolate myself into my room and
I don't think I should strive for a way to fit everything that I love into one project... or one job as much as I should focus on having faith in God, and have faith in myself and the gifts that I've been given.... and just BE. I suspect that my tendency to want to pile everything into one thing, and knowing how to do that comes from me being part of this "now generation", and wanting to know everything now. .... I need to keep calm & make it work lol...
I was thinking about it the other day, when I first moved into this city I used to be afraid of wasting my hellos and my nods and smiles to strangers or people that I met
I was thinking... maybe I should apply this same focus... this same drive, fire, intense dedication to not only my work, but also all other parts of me... I want my state of mind to start wearing this drive so that it could be sifted into all other areas of myself... not just my work. I don't want to find a name for what this idea or this "drive" is, because I feel it'll narrow it to that word.
I think may have a problem with feeling limited...